I don’t know how

I can pet that cat
knowing I will never see it again

I can fit into this family
if I couldn’t fit into the first one

I can start a new project
while I could be homeless tomorrow

I can set a new alarm
after failing today

I can start a new love story
when my heart is held together
by Xanax and duct tape

I don’t know how
I keep pushing through
this fucked up timeline

I don’t know how
but I won’t stop